My First Solo Sleep

aaaaaaaaaaLife has been so strange to me all through till this very moment.I would always wish if I could foresee what’s in store for me in the days to come. I have always been of the thought that there are just two states of mind for the human self. One when he is actually awake and the other when he is a sleep. Well and the same is proven at every turn of my life. What we see, what we experience in this world of material bonding is not what life is all about. I always used to hate to sleep when I was young for the simple reason that I would feel away from this world, for the simple reason that I may feel I don’t have my father and mother with me. I always used to dread of the dreams and night mares I used to get as a child because I used to be all alone there and the sigh of relief used to happen when I wake up to see myself safe between the arms of my achan and amma.This very sense of security would give me the courage of falling back to sleep with the upright feeling that I take both of them along to fight those nightmarish daemons to hell. Such were the hands of my parents who all the way have made be strong and courage’s. I still remember that special place I had between my parents on the bed which was the most secure place for me on earth. But as time passed it became necessary that they developed a sense of courage in me. Today when I look back I thank my parents for that great step they had taken. It so happened one day that achan thought it was time for me to sleep alone in my room. I was taken a back by this decision which happened all of a sudden. The world had suddenly crashed. I had lost that very secure place and now I had to fight the daemons in my dreams all alone. I got disturbed and didn’t know what to do. But achans decisions were final and I know I had no other option but to sleep alone. Normally we used to sleep by 9:30 as achan used to be tired of the day long struggle which every Mumbaities had to undergo. Sleep was the best part of my life as I was just in another womb but this time between my parents. But today it all changed as this was the first day of my sleep with out my parents. It was 9:30 and my bed was set and so was theirs. Till the very moment I used to feel that this can’t be happening. Achan won’t be so cruel on me. But it did happen, I was told to sleep alone from that day onwards. I wished them to call me once to come to their side and sleep, I prayed hard but all of a sudden all those gods whom I knew had already gone to sleep.Unfortuantely I had to sleep all alone. The lights went off and it was dark all around me. All of a sudden I started feeling pressure of my eye lids and they slowly started closing. I tried my level best to hold back as I was reluctant to enter the world of daemons that always used to bother me. Today they were all set as they already knew that I was alone. I forced myself not to but had to give way and I fell a sleep.

Wow!!! Its 11:45 and right now I feel sleepy… keep reading, surely rest in next.